Friday, May 12, 2006

Feels like Kindergarten. . . .again. . .

So, there are a few things I have learned in the past few months:

One, ants hurt when they bite. Stay far, far away.
Two, while working at Dairy Queen, it seems to be okay to walk around singing "POP goes the Wesiel" all day long. (It makes it even more fun when other people start to sing along with you)
Three, playing cards is fun. . . when your winning.
Four, getting out of school is great. But, it makes you realize how much you miss from not being there. (I miss Feather!)
Five, hateful attitudes develop because of: 1. Too much sleep. 2. Being around the same people for insane amounts of time.
Six, life moves pretty fast. I move out to Caswell at the end of this month, then come back in August, four days before I move into the dorms. It moves very quickly.
Seven, summertime is exciting, I have seen and talked to quite a few of my friends from HS. Super exciting.
Eight, I found out the other day that one of my ex's is getting married. Happy for him, but wow. . . I dont quite know why it isn't settling with me. I didn't want to get married yet. . . guess that is what he was after after all.

So, there are a few things that have been on my mind lately. Thought I would share!! Hope your weekend goes great!

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Choir Spring Concert

This is hilarious. I look extrememly bored in all of my pictures!! Haha, even though I was only bored half of the concert! For your viewing pleasure. . . (well maybe)

http://www.manring.net/photos/CU_Choir_Spring_Concert_3-28-06/

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Happy Birthday!!

Today is Bing Crosby's birthday!! Yes, he is no longer alive, but I still think that's pretty cool! Happy Birthday Bing!!

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Saturday, April 22, 2006

Yeah. Right

Today has been a super long day. We had our annual town of Spring Lake Spring Fling today. Yes, in the rain and everything. It started out great, with tons of people, and absolutely adorable little guys in their uniforms ready to play some ball. Well, it did rain. Quite a bit. I was drenched. Head to toe, squeaky shoes, yeah. Drenched. It was still fun though. What was supposed to last from 8 to 7 went from 8 to about 1230.

Work tonight was alright. It was hot, long, and I had to cook. But it works.

Two weeks of school left. Two weeks and I am no longer a freshman. How exciting! No more western civ!! Yay!! :) I can't wait. This week, finals, a few weeks of working, then the beach. Woh, exciting!

I know this might sound kinda funny. . . but I have had to attempt to explain why I think friendships are good for me for right now. Twice in one week actually. I don't mind, because it is kind of flattering. . .but I guess just getting my point across that I haven't been single for a long time, and these past few months have been so great. I get this feeling every time I like someone and it gets kind of serious. This uneasy feeling like something isn't right. Like I am in the wrong place, wrong time. I hate that feeling. I hate feeling like I have to let another person down. I just know that if it is the right guy at the right time, I won't get that feeling. So for now, I think my best route is to make friends. Close, good, fun friendships that won't be something to make me fall farther from my relationship with my maker. . . This is definately what I want. When the right guy is there, I wont get that feeling anymore. I know I won't.

Well, just another day. Tomorrow is going to be exciting. We have homecoming at my church. Big deal. I am really excited. I have to sing with my sister, but I think it will be okay. I am really excited because people I haven't seen in forever are going to be there! Well I hope it goes well, and I will have to write about it later.

For now, it is getting about that time for bed. Long days ahead. . .need my beauty sleep~!

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Another Week at CU

Life gets harder and harder every day. . . I feel like I am sinking lower and lower into my own hole, one I created, and I don't know how to get out of it.

Things have been going good. My ho friend is back on his feet again, which is always exciting. . . I am getting along with my mom, which is always a good thing. . . I absolutely love McGoof, who has def been my human-savior lately. . . just someone to spend time with thats fun. Much needed. Love it acutally.

So, I know I have talked before about dating. I guess I have made my point to myself that I enjoy being single. . . but then there is that one time where if that one guy wanted to be in a relationship I would be all for it. But I def am enjoying my friendships more than anything. Its great.

School is almost out, and Caswell time is almost here!! I can't wait! Finals are the first week of may. . .then I leave for the beach May 29th! Super exciting!!

Well you have a fabulous rest of your week, and I will write again very soon!!

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Ramblin'

I struggle a lot with the fact that God is in control and not me. I hate feeling like I am stuck and don't know what I should do or what I should say. What do you do when you feel like you want to go for something, but you are afraid that it is only a fluke and isn't really the thing to do? Or maybe it is the thing you should do, but you are too scared that it isnt going to go well? These are the kinds of things that frusterate me.

Got a packet of papers from Caswell and oh am I excited! All summer at the beach hanging out with kids. . . I think this is a fabulous place for me. Leave at the end of May and don't get back until August. . . Exciting? Absolutely.

I meet tons of new people everyday. I really enjoy getting to know new people. There are actually a few that I really would like to get to know more, but that goes back to my comment above. I have a hard time with falling for people. I get it really bad, but I hate it and how it makes me feel like a little kid, so I try not to do anything about it, and basically talk myself out of it. Its funny, because the ones that I have great friendships with are the ones that I have talked myself out of a "crush" on them. Kinda exciting, but frusterating at the same time. Relationships never seem to go to the positive with me. . . had some rough ones. . . been brought up with the knowledge of hurt and how angry I am with my father, and I think that has to do a lot with me and not wanting to get hurt again. I havent really been thinking about him but recently and ever since I got out of two very hard relationships, I have been thinking about how they aren't even worth it sometimes. How can you hurt someone? Well, if you ask the past fellas they could probably tell me how. . . I feel like I am rambling. . . well, yeah I am.

All in all, I do have a hard time making myself just want to be friends, because I know that is always the right way to go, but then I would like to know more. . . but thats where I just have to wait.

I watched "The Perfect Man" today. Not literally, but the movie. . . and the mom said something that stuck in my mind. I actually wrote it down. . . "New people are only new for a day. After that, they are just people. People who will excite you, disappoint you, scare you a little bit. Its tempting to run away when that happens. Its good for avoiding things. But the problem is, you end up avoiding yourself, avoiding people you love. You end up avoiding life."

You guys have a fabulous rest of your week. . . thanks for reading my ramble~

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Monday, March 27, 2006

Random Thoughts

I drink non-alcoholic beverages.

What did one little boy say to the other little boy?
You're a fun guy!

I dont really know what was on my mind. . .but I thought I would share. Okay, if you don't get the little boy joke, it is supposed to be what did one mushroom say to the other? Your a fungi! Get it? Yeah, my sister cracked me up asking what one little boy said to the other.

Life is getting harder, but it gets better as the semester goes on. Its great actually. Wouldn't change it for the world. Wait, this is my world.

I am going to go play baseball with a 5 year old.

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Positive and Encouraging

The title of my blog is "Fabulous You". (Obviously). One thing that made me want this title is to bring some encouragement to someone else. Yeah, my life is not always the way it should be, but in reality, who's is? Just knowing that what I put on here is in my life, someone may be looking at it and thinking, hey, I've been there too. I guess I just wanted to put this here to let others know that they are not alone.

I am a big "Air 1" fan. You should listen. In Fayetteville/Spring Lake, NC the radio station is 89.3. If you are not in this area, and have access to a computer (BTW if you're reading this, you have no excuse) go to the link at the top and listen online. There are lyrics and all sorts of fun stuff. Its positive and encouraging air1.

Just some more ideas of how to help make life a little easier. Some are helpful. Others may not be as much help. You can look, or you don't have to. Its all you.

1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
6. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
7. Take one day at a time.
8. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
9. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
10. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
11. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
12. Get enough rest.
13. Eat right.
14. Get organized so everything has its place.
15. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
16. Every day, find time to be alone.
17. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
18. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope isoften a good "Thank you Jesus."
19. Laugh.
20. Laugh some more!
21. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
22. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the bestthey can).
23. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
24. Talk less; listen more.
25. Slow down.
26. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before. GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU. "If God is for us, who can be against us?"(Romans 8:31)

You have a great day!
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Friday, March 10, 2006

Choir Tour 2006

What: CU Choir Tour
When: March 2, 2006 thru March 9, 2006
Where: OBX NC
Who: Hmm obviously the University Choir, but I may be wrong.

After having second thoughts about going on tour, this week was completely different than I thought it would be. We went to several churches and a shopping mall to sing. Pretty exciting huh? The friendships I made and the fun I was able to have still blows my mind. I guess God wanted me to see things in a different light, and I was really able to. It was really a fabulous trip, but I am so glad to be home and be able to rest a bit and see some of my friends and family here. I wouldnt take back this trip for anything.

We had to stay each night with a different "host home" which was a family that had offered to house a few of us in the choir for the night. Great homes actually. I stayed with Megan. Great girl. Became really good friends because of it. God showed me a lot throughout the events that occured in the trip. Dont want to say what they are but I have basically learned that I really need to trust in him to direct me.

Last night when I got home, I had to meet with my small group, for the 40 days of purpose campaign that my church is doing. For my first meeting I was able to really enjoy just learning and spending time with more people. I am really excited about what else is going to happen throughout the rest of the semester.

Well, got two more days without my family here with me, but I needed some ME time definately.

I'm out~

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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Today

Today is the day. Today is Feb 27, 2006. The only Feb 27, 2006 you get. Make the most of it.

Days get harder and harder. One day you think you are finally caught up, but the next day you realize you are now a day behind. School, work, church, friends, babysitting, work, sleep. . . the list just gets longer. I can handle it though.

I am so excited about this summer. As the days keep going, I get more and more excited! I cant wait to see what God has in store for me, or even for all of us that will be there! Great fun!

I am getting ready to leave on a Choir Tour with the CU choir. . . I think I am excited. . .but that may be just because I get to go and travel, and sing, and hang out with people, which all I really like to do. Lets hope it turns out as good as I think it will.

Life is good. Its moving on whether your ready or not. (Key: be ready)

So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today.
Matthew 6:34 NLT

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

Oh! Crazy Days!

Lately, every day has been crazier than the one before. When will all this madness end!? No, but for serious. I have been either frusterated or completely overwhelmed everyday for the past 2 weeks. School is frusterating, so is work, and it really is all my fault. Priorities are a little gone, and thats it. Now its just putting them all back together.

Went to interview weekend, and it went pretty good. Met lots of people, got to see some of my friends from the past summer(s), so it definately works. I got hired to work at Caswell, which I am super excited! After going through the interviews and stuff, that one was my favorite. Definately excited that is where I will be spending my summer.

Every day gets longer and harder, but I can go on. I will. I have no choice actually :). Well I guess this is all for now. Just wanted to give a little update!

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Valentines Day

In the Middle Ages, young men and women drew names from a bowl to see who their valentines would be. They would wear these names on their sleeves for one week. To wear your heart on your sleeve now means that it is easy for other people to know how you are feeling.

Wow, Valentines day. Crazy isn't it? Good crazy. A fun kind of crazy. I enjoy it. :)

Today while working, I know there were at least 50 vases of flowers delivered to the students. Thats exciting! You know the feeling. . . you find a dozen roses or an assortment of great flowers, and they are for you. From someone special. The faces of the ones who came to pick them up were happy. That inner joy comes out from something as simple as a flower.

I enjoyed my day. I went to my classes and worked, and then babysat the greatest kids in the world, got in yet another big arguement with my sister. . .yeah, I enjoyed my day. But all the same, just another day in the neighborhood.

Interview weekend is this weekend. I am super excited. I get to see one of my favorite people! I just pray it goes well and that I can be placed in a job that will best fit for the plans for the summer.

Well, I guess that is pretty much it. . . living life day to day, trying not to worry about things of the past or things of the future, but just today. Tomorrow, I will think about tomorrow. Life will get better. Just gotta take it one step at a time.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

February

February. Already. Minor note, Choco Cherry Love is the Blizzard of the month. Just a FYI.

School isn't going too bad. Getting ready for my week of tests.

This past weekend, the UC had the "Spring Choir Retreat". Honestly, I was dreading it OH so much. But I got there, and after singing and playing some games and eating, I really ended up having a good time. This semester with Choir is going to be a lot of fun. I think I make myself crazy about stupid little things.

Coffee and Diet Pepsi get me in trouble. I have become so addicted to caffeine that when I realized I was gaining a little bit of weight, I decided to quit drinking it so much. Well these past few days have been terrible. You never know how addicted to it you get until you stop it for a while. Its pretty bad when you have to drink a cup of coffee just to make it through the day.

I think I am going to skip Valentines day this year. I have had a lot of things on my mind about dating, and I havent been single for soooo long and these past few months have been good and bad. Yeah, its a long process, learning and developing better relationships with my friends that I have messed up before, but I am glad. No dating for right now and fixing my relationship part of my life seems like a good idea.
Anyway. . . Ok so these fellas went swimming in the ocean over new years. . . Yeah, I took pictures, but it was funny. I think at one point I was talking to someone about people actually swimming in the cold ocean. Crazy? Absolutely.

Well I am done for now.

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Round 2

Spring already. . . my 2nd semester in college. So far everything has gone well. I enjoy pretty much all of my classes, um maybe not one, but the rest of them anyway. Lots to do and to learn, and I have to get back into thinking mode.

New things have come into play since the new year began. Met some pretty fun people. . . got my classes all together. . . enjoyed spending time with great people so far, and I know that there is a lot more that this semester will hold.

I have applied to work at another camp this summer, not Mundo Vista, but Caswell. I sent in a tape for the praise team and everything so we will see how all of that turns out. I will miss Mundo but I think a change will be great. Dont know if that will happen, who knows I could end up at Mundo again, but either way, its gonna be different and fun and it will be worth it.

I have had tons on my mind lately. Lots of things dealing with me, with school, dealing with other people, relationships- all that I have had on my mind before, but now it seems as if it has become more clear that I really need to work on my people skills. . . I guess it would have to be getting called heartless. How can someone truely be heartless?

Makes you think. . . well me anyway. I get angry with things, and I get frusterated with stuff, and I will probably tell you if I get mad, but that shouldnt be a reason to call me heartless. Yeah and I am not very fond of the person that did, however, I still love and care for him like he is my brother, but I really dont like him at all. Yeah, but we are done with that one.

Well I guess this is all for now. . . I will hopefully have time to talk more later. . . Not that anyone cares~ :)

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Monday, January 02, 2006

New Year Already?

Wow, this past year has gone by so fast! I graduated high school, worked away a summer at a fabulous camp, finally got into school, and then finished my first semester. I just cant believe it!

This past weekend was probably the best ever. I went to a Big God Conference in Myrtle Beach. We left on Friday and got back last night. Fabulous way to spend new years by the way.

It didnt start out a great weekend though. I went with so much on my mind. So much that I felt like I just couldnt handle. It almost put me in this weird quiet mood. (and yeah thats super odd for me).

So much happened though. We had a bunch of music and great bands come and play, and then some fabulous speakers. Each one had a different story and gave a different truth about some things in life. Choices, lies, image, dating, opportunities, and tomato soup.

One weekend that started out being dreaded, became a weekend that gave me a new look on what can happen in my life, what I make of it and how I can't do it on my own.

It is a new year. . . and its going to be a great year.

Yay for Daniel!!

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